shane

so i haven't updated in months.

maybe i will now.
but maybe not.
i think i'm gonna pretend that i've been updating since july to save time.
sound good to everyone?
good.

yeah...i don't feel like updating now...maybe tomorrow.

i'll say this much:
the world's moving along whether i move with it or not. and i'm doing my best to keep up. things are good overall. yup.

goodnight.

yup, i'm alive.


...sort of.



this won't be the greatest update no matter what i do so [for lj purposes] let's just pretend that the past month and a half never really happened. k?

even though i'll surely reference to things that happened then...it's just too hard to get everything in.



so i've got mono! yay!
and it sucks.
i'm not allowed to do ANYTHING.
and now, since my dad is mad at me, i can't go see DAVE this weekend :'(
and jenny was gonna come. but now she can't. and it all just sucks. and now i won't see her beautiful face until we go to florida probably.

i'm just not in a good place right now. i don't like feeling like that.
but my whole summer's gonna be a waste [except for Disney of course :)] because i have to rest.

why the fuck isn't there medicine for this sickness??? that's just not fair. i think we should stop researching a cure for cancer and find one for mono.

i'm just kidding. don't worry, i'm not that heartless...
...or am i?


but all this mono business means that my spleen is swollen.
and my spleen being swollen means i can't work.
and not working means i can't make money.
and not making money means i can't DO ANYTHING!
luckily my dad has said that he'll take care of me for the money i didn't make when i go to Disney which is awfully nice of him, i think.


so let's see...
last weekend jenny and i went to her house upstate.
Henry tried to kill a turkey and the cops were out to get us all weekend [read Jenny's lj for the whole story]
but it was a great weekend. we just hung around and talked and made a fire and talked and had breakfast out on the deck and it was all just perfect. i think it was just what we needed.

and yes, i fell in love all over again.
as if i needed to, because i never fell out of love...




unfortunately, that's all the update i have in me right now.
i've gotta run to a lesson and then i unfortunately have to go to the wake of my friend's sister :'(
it's very sad. she was only 10 or 12.
it's just not fair.




but such is life.

i haven't updated in forever...
and i'm not really going to.

here's another entry for my love, because i misses her kisses.
so don't read it if you're just gonna get queasy.







so there's this girl in smithtown
who i love unbelievably so
and who i'm more than content to sit on the phone with until 4 am even when i have to wake up at 7:30.
she's just gorgeous and fun and amazing and smart and beautiful and just incredible.
the bestest ever.
and i can't hold her for another week :(
i can't even look into her beautiful blue eyes for another week.
i can't stand falling asleep without her in my arms and just feeling her warm body pressed against mine.
it simply does not get better than that.
nothing can compare.
nothing can even hope to come close to that feeling.
i just miss her, plain and simple.
more than anything in the world.
and i just want to be with her.
i can't stand this being away from each other stuff.
i'm not used to it.
and i know we were really spoiled at school, but i want more of that.
i'm happiest when i can kiss you.
and run my hands through your hair
and touch your face
and hold your hand
and pull you close to me
and know you're safe and happy and warm at night.
you're my everything
and i love you with all my heart.
don't ever forget that, Peanut.

i love you.

O.A.R. in the subject line?
that means it's summer, folks.

it feels damn good to be home. although, i don't really think it's quite set in that i'm home for almost 2 1/2 months. it still kinda feels like the weekend.

but anyways...hmm. an update? haven't done that in a while. so here goes:

school's over!
i spent finals week sleeping a lot and bumming around with my darling Jenny :) i took my theory final on friday morning but that's the ONE GRADE that still isn't online!!! and it's the ONE GRADE i really really want to see. but i got a B+ in my humanities AUC! that made me ever so happy and it gives me a 3.75 gpa as of right now. that also makes me giddy with joy. like a little girl! teeheehee.

just kidding.
but not really.


anyhoo
after the AUC final [saturday] i stuck around until tuesday and then my dad came to pick me up. my appointment for checkout was at noon but i forgot lots of stuff in jenny's room so we didn't get started until about 11:40. it took about an hour, but we got everything fairly easily.

then we got lunch at Quiznos. and it was good.
we got home and unloaded everything and then i spent the evening being lazy. which is now made all the easier due to the newly installed 2nd and 3rd satellite receivers! one in the playroom and one up in jimmy's room. totally sweet.

i had an eye appointment on wednesday and got new frames for me glasses. i don't know if i like them so much...which is bad. but i don't really like the way i look in glasses to begin with so maybe they'll grow on me. besides, the woman who worked there said they looked good. but maybe that's because she was trying to get me the hell out of there...i had tried on a bunch at this point and didn't like any too much.

but they gave me trial contacts because my prescription has changed so they're stronger than the last ones. i wore them most of the day and they gave me a nasty headache because i'm used to my weaker glasses. that, combined with the heat made me not well for most of the day. it was bearable until later that night when i just couldn't take it anymore.

unfortunately, i'm a jackass and said some stupid stuff [or didn't - the person this is for knows what i mean] and upset a very special someone.
but i'm very sorry. it was not my intention and i should never make you feel that way.





and on top of all this, there's a girl in Smithtown who's coming to see me tomorrow!!!
which is AMAZING because i love her. and i miss her more than words can ever express...Jenny, you're the bestest ever. don't ever forget it. i dove you! i cannot wait to see you. we'll have sooooo much fun this weekend even if we are in dull ol' chatham ;) we'll make the best of it, just like we do everywhere. i miss you so much...but you'll be here in like...10 hours! :) :) :)




in other news, i have to go help my brother pack up his stuff from UAlbany tomorrow morning :( that means i have to be up in like...6 1/2 hours!
ugh.
i certainly am not looking forward to that.


and some info on the job outlook for the summer...
i need to make lots of money [not quite as much as originally anticipated due to our D i s n e y trip being cut in cost by about $400 total] and was planning on working a lot.
but my dad wants me to go to this guy we know who is a crazy jazz musician [a drummer at heart but he knows his stuff nontheless] for lessons/instruction/enrichment or whatever. and he wants me to go 2 or 3 times a week. so that would seriously cut into time i could be working. BUT! he understands this and says, since he considers this to be part of my education, he would "supplement" my income if i went and pay me to do work around the house on the off days and in my other time. probaby at $10 an hour - under the table - which is better than i could do anyplace in town. i know i'm being spoiled, but if you could do it, you would. so don't complain.


and that's about all for now.
now i think i'll get up to bed and dream of my beautiful girl being in my arms tomorrow afternoon...
that's about as good as life gets.




goodnight.

I haven't updated in forever...so I'm not gonna try and get everything in. but here's basically what happened since the last update:
Big Band Show - it went pretty well...except emma can't sing. and she's a bitch. that's why jenny's gonna sing with us next year! yayy!!
Spring Fling - it was pretty wild...nicole got hit in the head with a FULL can of beer at the Black Eyed Peas show, noah came up for the whole weekend, and the village looked like a war zone on sunday. it was fun.
classes have ended - my first final is tomorrow. chromatic harmony, prepare to have your ass kicked.
Hartbeats opened for Stop Laughing Mom - they were great as always. and Stop Laughing Mom was alright. i wasn't expecting a whole lot so i wasn't really disappointed.

and now, the important stuff...


IT'S OUR 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!
I planned a picnic at the park for jenny and i. we couldn't have asked for a better day. there wasn't a cloud in the sky and it was hanging somewhere around 70 degrees all day. that, plus a day being lazy and walking around the park with my baby? could anything be better than that???
i didn't think so.

i'm so glad we discovered this park. there's a rose garden, a tulip garden, a greenhouse or two, some ponds with cool bridges, and a rock garden.


[as an aside, a "rock garden," much like an "open faced sandwich," can not, by definition exist;
a garden is defined as "a plot of land used for the cultivation of flowers, vegetables, herbs, or fruit."
nowhere in this definition does it mention "a naturally formed aggregate of mineral matter constituting a significant part of the earth's crust." suck on that, you fictional conservatory of pebble procurements!]


it was just such a wonderful day...i can't even begin to describe it. and we finally got to have our catch! it made me soooo so so so so so so so so happy! even if i'm a little rusty [i have hardly touched a baseball or glove in the past 7 years or so] and even if jenny is used to a softball. we still had a blast :)

after we walked around the park for a while, we decided to head over to a.c. peterson's, an ice cream diner we've heard a lot about recently. but, on our way there, we saw lisa and dan at the Prospect Cafe and decided it would be nice to sit outside and eat.
so we did.
and it was good.

then we went tanning. i got burned a bit again...damn my irishness! actually, no. don't damn it. i love being irish. it's awesome.

after that, it was back to jenny's room to watch the Friends finale thinger. and watch we did. it was pretty good...but some of the writing seemed a bit lacking to me...whatever. the show had a good run and good times were had by all.

that's about it until now...oh yeah, and i gave jenny her last surprise of the evening...but i'm not gonna tell you what it is. because i'm insecure and embarassed :\ but you can ask her if you're hell bent on getting the info.

( naked pictures!!! or pictures from the park... )

( just for Jenny. unless you like cutesy stuff...you weirdo. )

so Rob and i got park river next year. because we're pimps. simple as that.

i know i haven't updated in a while...but deal with it. the only real thing that happened last week was housing. and, as mentioned above, rob and i are pimps. and we're living practically right above jenny next year. we managed to buy our way up the line for housing for 10 bucks. we skipped over 200 plus people and got to live where we wanted as a result. it was totally sweet.

then it was time for the weekend.
steve and noah came up on friday. but of course, noah can't do anything the easy way so his car had to go and run out of gas about 20 minutes from school. but none of us here were...in an altered state of consciousness you could say...and couldn't drive out to get him. but he finally got here. i'm not really sure what time, though. i drank. a lot. and got sick. and passed out around 4ish i think.

then on saturday, sara came up from smithtown and we went out to lunch with jenny's family at the rainforest cafe. it was a good ol' time but i felt kinda funky for most of the day. not hung over, just weird and not quite right. but before long it was time to head over to Wilde for A Cappellapalooza!

the Hartbeats sounded [and looked, i might add] amazing as always and i would say it was a successful final show for the seniors in the group. and my jenny sounded especially incredible on her solo :) it was soooooo good.

afterwards, i ran the recording over to the studio and then we got ready to go out to emily's for an afterparty.
she had the party in her apartment and it was crazy; she lives on the second floor in the village and with all the people dancing in the living room, it felt like the floor was gonna cave in. there were a bunch of people there i knew from Hartt so it wasn't too awkward hanging out there. but then the party got broken up by the Pubs so we came back to jenny's room and called it a night.

then, on sunday, we got up for breakfast with jenny's family [really early :( well, not really. but early enough] and went to their hotel to meet them. we didn't eat a whole lot but that's okay cause what we did eat was damn tasty. then we said our goodbyes and came back to the room to take a nap.

but when i say "take a nap," i really mean "sleep the day away." we didn't wake up until 5:30 and by then jenny had to get ready to go to Mathilde's birthday dinner at Puerto Vallarta. after she came back, jenny, lia, rob, nicole, audrey and i went bowling...but there was a bit of a twist. and it was called alcohol. that makes bowling a whole lot more fun. even though i suck beyond all reason. but that's okay.
we also found that pretty much the same crowd that was at the party was bowling in the lane next to us and i was getting some tips from a drunken Chris Anderson [who you may or may not remember as the spark to the spork discussion in the studio a few weeks back]. so after rob, nicole and i beat the girls, we headed to the diner for a little late night snack. and now we're back.

and i'm tired.
so i'm going to bed.
i have to do a lot tomorrow and i don't know when i'll find the time...i have to really memorize our songs for our ensemble gig tomorrow night and get some stuff ready for my dad to take home.

but he's bringing my baseball glove up!!! so jenny and i can have a catch!!! i haven't done that in forever and i can't wait.

ugh. and i have to wake up in less than 4 hours for work :(
goooooodnight everyone.

okay, jenny's right; i haven't updated in forever. to be honest, i don't even remember when the last update was, so if i repeat myself or leave anything out, i'm sorry.

let's start with Thursday...
jenny and i went to play bingo again at the synagogue but we found out it wasn't actually happening :*( we were very upset. especially Jenny because i know she was really looking forward to it.
then we decided to go out to dinner instead. so we went to Cosi and it was a good ol' time. then we were off to Blockbuster to grab some movies and wound up with Thirteen and American Wedding [both of which i still have to return...]

nicole went to see anthony this weekend so we've had the place to ourselves since thursday night. but we didn't finish either movie, as jenny was in movie ADD-mode and couldn't stay focused :) it's all good though. we still had a good time as we always do.

friday night we spent together, just a-relaxin'...saturday afternoon i went to work for about an hour...[this is a really shitty update...but i'm drawing a total blank on the specifics because i just want to go cuddle with my baby...]

saturday night i remember - which is surprising - and it's worth writing about.
jenny went out with the Hartbeat girls to Lori's bday party so rob and i decided we'd go find our own place to party. we pre-gamed in jenny's room and then headed out to a party in the 4's. it was pretty cool...and it was actually a registered party. which is insane because village parties are rarely if ever registered...and they had like...six 30 racks i think. but they ran out shortly after rob and i got there so we left and met back up with jenny, audrey, and lia. then it was over to amy's suite where she and elise had just gotten back from their delta gamma formal with their dates. so we hung out there for a bit and then went over to elise's date [joe]'s suite to chill and drink some more. after we ordered a pizza [and it somehow became like...4 in the morning] we decided to call it a night.

but i had to get up at 8ish to go to work for an hour. which was not fun at all. but afterwards, i came back and crawled into bed with my baby and we slept until about 4 in the afternoon. we just hung out again until jenny went to rehearsal that night and then we came back and pulled an all-nighter.
doing work, you pervert!
again, i had to get up early [this time at 7] to go to work for another hour. and it was, like before, a rating of less than zero on the Fun Scale.

so i slept through my first two classes :( and was going to sleep through the third, but remembered i had a quiz which could not be made up any other day. but it really didn't matter that i went, because when i got there, i discovered that i had read the syllabus wrong and had subsequently read the WRONG BOOK for the quiz; i read Chekhov, but we were quizzed on Voltaire. that really ruined my day. i think i may have gotten some points on the bonus question, but that will be it. the rest was blank. booooooooooo!

then it was off to practicum, where everything in the studio was apparently broken. then we went to pick up jenny's pants and went to quizno's. then jenny went to rehearsal and i to my room. then we came back here and now i'm going to lay in bed.

yup. shitty, lengthy update i know...but deal with it :D
g'night all.

this weekend was as good as can be expected...having been away from Jenny all weekend :( but i got to hang out with the boys and play some music with steve and noah and it was totally rockin'. of course, we rocked in before we rocked out. 'cause...ya know...ya have to. right.

anyway...celebrated my birthday this weekend with my family and i got about $500 that i can use for !!!D I S N E Y!!! so that'll make things much easier on me as far as the amount of work i'll have to do goes.

oh and we played game cube on my dad's new GINORMOUS tv. and watched movies. it was totally sweet. except for the Matrix Revolutions. that movie was a piece of crap. but that's okay because we watched good things on it too like Black Hawk Down, which was incredible before, but in 5.1 surround? H o l y s h i t. and School of Rock.

and i got to play Battlefield Vietnam [because i'm an enormous nerd] and it's totally sweet.

what else...we colored easter eggs on saturday night with noah, steve, pat and audrey. that was a good ol' time.

easter day i had dinner with my dad as a combo easter/bday dinner. meatloaf and biscuits and home made iced tea and lots of delicousness.
then my dad drove me back to hartford and i dropped stuff off in my room and went to get jenny's car so i could pick her up from the ferry.

i met her there and we hugged lots and lots and gave each other missed lovies and whatnot. and then she gave me my birthday presents. and they're AWESOME. she picks the best gifts. it's amazing. i got 2 shirts from Vintage Vantage [check out www.vintagevantage.com and find the Tiajuana and Vietnam shirts] and the Kids in the Hall season 1 on dvd. she's the bestest ever.

then we came back to school and she showed me her 3298374019709487510487 new outfits that she got when her dad gave her money to go shopping. and they're all hott. and cute. and sexy. at the same time. she's just that gorgeous.



then, for my actual birthday, jenny and i went out to dinner and a movie. she was upset because they were supposed to sing to me at Macaroni Grill but they forgot but that's okay, it's the thought that counts. i've never had anyone try and get people to sing to me on my birthday. after dinner we went to Starbucks to waste a little time and then went to see the Ladykillers. it was a damn fine movie in my humble opinion. how can you not like a movie with a character named Mr. Pancakes?

and then we came back and went to bed...or something like that ;)
[don't worry nicole, nothing happened in the room :D]


it was a great birthday all in all. thanks to everyone who made it that way. especially my jenny! my first birthday with my love was absolutely amazing and i'm looking forward to many many more.






ugh. just got back from the gym a little while ago. so i have to go shower. bye bye now.

...our first real time apart since December...this is weird. really weird. and i don't know if i like it. in fact, i know that i don't like it. [jenny went home this evening. so did i, but i had to come back because some of us have class on friday ;)]

this is gonna be tough. but at least it's only the weekend and we'll get to see each other on sunday night. but falling asleep without her next to me just isn't the same. as odd as it sounds, it just isn't comfortable to have a whole bed to myself.

i know i don't really "deserve" to complain about not seeing her for a weekend...because we're pretty spoiled with the amount of time we have together...but i can't help it. i miss her dammit. a lot.


here's my favortie Jenny moment from this past week:'
Jenny: you didn't say you were catholic!
Shane: i'm Irish...i'm pretty catholic.
Jenny: no! you definitely said something else...it was longer. like two words or somthing...
Nicole: you mean Roman Catholic?
Jenny: YEAH!!!


my god, i love her <3
more than words can ever hope to express.
*sigh* i guess i'll go try and find something to occupy my time...

i'm going home TOMORROW!!!
i went home today...but only for a few hours. because it was my dad's birthday and i wanted to surprise him. but it was i who seemed to be the one who was really surprised...i go into the TV room to surprise my dad and there's a totally sweet 42' or 46' flat screen, high definition TV with surround sound and a ginormous subwoofer just chillin' in the corner. you know it's good when you can easily watch TV from the kitchen [across that huge room that Owen hates]

just orgasmic.




alright. that's all for tonight.
i'm off to bed...alone :*(

goodnight, jenny. sleep well. sweet dreams, baby. *kisses*

yeeehaw!
another week down and another week closer to ssuuummmeeerrrrr!!!
i simply cannot wait to be out of here for a few months. it'll really be coming just at the right time. i can feel myself starting to get fed up and frustrated with UHa after having been here FOREVER and not really being home for more than like...2 or 3 days at a time. but, of course, the downside to being home is being away from my darling jenny :*( that will surely suck a lot and i know i've mentioned it before [at some length] but it's been on my mind lately...just thinking about how the end of this school year will be kinda bittersweet in that way.

but anyhoo...
thursday was gross...but i LOVED it :) i love the rain and it was most certainly a rainy day. i was supposed to go to work at 11:30 but the event got cancelled so i didn't have to worry about it. which meant no money but whatever, at least i got more nap time in.

but i had to leave early-ish anyway because Gabor rescheduled my lesson for 1:30. so i got a good deal of "Zhat vas terrible!" and "Vhat zee hell vas zhat?!" and then i went to ensemble...where we had the same guy as last time because Nat's still in europe or the cayman islands. and that meant another intense session of jazz theory in the middle of playing.

needless to say my mind was destroyed once again and i shall never look at the blues in the same way...ever.

theennnnn...i, uh...i don't remember.
oh yeah. Jenny and i went to the gym! it was awesome. i did 4 miles while i was there [2 on the treadmill and 2 on the eliptical] at a damn good pace for being insanely out of shape; the 2 on the treadmill i did in about 15 mins and the 2 on the eliptical...i don't remember how long they took. i think it was 20 because i did it with some resistance and on a bit of an incline. it felt soooooooo so so so so so so good to be doing something strenuous again. i'm kind of regretting not playing intramural indoor soccer :( but i don't know how much i would actually have been able to play so it's all good. hopefully i'll play this summer in the men's league with the original chatham united crew. word. we rule.

you can check jenny's lj for info on her totally sweet april fool's joke :)

following that, i was pretty beat, but jenny had another restless night and stayed up AGAIN and went to the gym at like 6 for an hour and a half. then she crashed at about 10ish and asked me to come back to nap with her. so of course i did because i'm always looking for any excuse to come back to my baby and fall asleep. so we slept the day away and woke up at like 7 [after i had gone to work in between there somewhere] and we just kinda chilled here. we were gonna watch a movie but jenny was too tired since she has to get up at like 6 and we'll go to the gym and then she has to do Red Key stuff.
but i couldn't sleep so i layed there for about 2 hours and then decided to get up and sit on the computer until i got tired...which is just about....now.
but now jenny's awake and wants to watch a movie...our sleep cycles are so f'd in the b. but i don't think i can stay awake for that now...we'll see what happens.


alright, i'm gonna head to bed or something now. g'night.

ooooohhh!!!
last night was awesome.
another incredible night out with the bestest ever...a night of Macaroni Grill, good conversation about everything [but especially Disney ;D], and an amazing time at the movies <3 *sigh* sooooo good :) it makes me feel all...filled up just from thinking about it. does that make sense? well, it does to me. and it's an amazing feeling.

speaking of movies, Eternal Sunshine was goooooood. definitely worth seeing at least. a really cool concept that's executed quite well. it was pretty sweet.

after the movie we came back and i did a bit of reading. oh hurrah for Hamlet! surprisingly enough, i don't really mind reading Shakespeare these days...could it be that i'm "appreciating" all of this "classic" literature? no way! i'm too young for that!
anyway, after some reading i was just about dead so i went nawnies in Jenny's bed. she attempted to join me but found herself restless...which leads me to Wednesday...

and it has most certainly been a long Wednesday...
it started out with me having to get up for class at 9.30 as usual but it was awfully hard to actually get out of bed...maybe that's because i didn't sleep as well without my jenny by my side. if this is any indication of what the summer will be like while we're apart, i don't like it. not one bit.

but i got up anyway and was actually fairly alert through my classes. ear training was boring as usual...i got a quiz back in theory and it seems like that's going to be the class to drag down my GPA this semester...i got a seventy-something on it and haven't been doing all that great on my homeworks. i just suck at voice leading i guess.

but then i found out i got an 83 on my Western Heritage midterm! which is amazing because i was pretty sure that i failed...
after that, i went into the studio for a bit, hoping to get some work done. but, after waiting for some Community Division kid's piano recital to load into the computer for an hour and a half, i decided it was time to leave.

then i was off to the ID office to get my time card for the Tech job. that was pretty painless. then i ran over to the 1877 Club to see why my "boss" had called my cell while i was in class.
turns out he needed me to sign up for stuff this week...meaning, tonight. i reluctantly agreed because it was about three hours of "work" [sitting around] for five hours of pay as an incentive. so i agreed.
what he DIDN'T tell me was that i was going to be doing this on my own so i needed to be shown ALL the things necessary to set up. and he could've done it pretty quickfast, but instead he took his sweet ass time talking and rambling about things i really didn't need to know and things i already knew. bah.
and now i'm just waiting to head over there.

and Jenny's sleeping soundly in her bed next to me after a long night of...insomnia? a sudden, burning desire to get lots of her work done after not being able to sleep? whatever it was, she got lots done, and deserves to zonk out for a while. <3
...so beautiful and peaceful :)

which brings me to what was definitely the worst part of the day:
not seeing my darling Jenny for almost the entire day. it really sucks. like, really really really really x 1209834612039847123984712304981723498127 + 3.4
yeah...that much.

arrrrrrrrrr.
this summer is gonna be so hard.
but i KNOW we'll visit each other aaaallll the time so it won't be too bad.
and right now, i just want to crawl into bed with her and sleep forever. but i can't because i know i would NEVER wake up in time to get to this work hoober joober.
but alas, i need the money. and i should be getting...um...math...about $60 for my time so far [assuming i can get paid next wednesday, which i most definitely should] it might not sound like much, but any money is a lot of money to me right now.
hopefully now i'll have some cash so we can have more dates like our one last night!

man i have to stop writing War and Peace-size entries...sheesh. somebody cut me off.

this is another lj entry dedicated to the love of my life<3




I love you, babe.
Every second we're together is just incredible. I can't wait until this summer when we can just visit each other and be lazy and have so many great times together doing amazing summer stuff...going to the beach, picnics, having a catch, watching you play softball, going out to dinner, walks everywhere, falling asleep watching movies...and everything unplanned that will definitely be great.
and, of course, there's D i s n e y. I know that it gets mentioned in just about every entry these days, but I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so excited about it. I really can't wait. to be in the happiest place on earth with the one girl who makes me happier than anything on earth? there can't possibly be anything better than that.


it all comes down to that fact that I love you, Hunny. more than anything. you make me so happy and I hope I can do the same for you. You're my everything and I can't wait to find out all the incredible things that we'll experience together.
Being with you just makes everything better.
No matter what gets me bummed out, just looking into your big blue eyes and seeing you smile at me will make it all slip away. Something as simple as the way you look at me reminds me that I'm the luckiest guy on earth.
You're the most loving, caring, fun, beautiful, cute, sexy, and just plain amazing girl in the world. You're just so incredible...I don't know what I did to deserve you but I never want to be away from you. I never want you to be unhappy. I always want to be there for you...to carry you when you're tired, hold you when you're sad, hug you when you're happy...and kiss you all the time.

You're just my everything. I hope you know that. I hope this helps show you that. I really don't say stuff like this often enough. I promise I will tell you as often as I can just how much you really mean to me.

You'll always be the bestest ever to me.

I love you, Jenny.
yours forever,
Hubby.
<3
xoxoxo

whooo!
weekend!
wait...it's over? crap.
where did it go? well today we took a like a five hour nap...before that i went to a bit of training for my Tech job and Jenny went to an Acapella Coalition meeting. [when i say training, i mean i was shown how to turn on a projector and press play on a dvd player...then, the job would consist of me sitting there and watching "Glory" in its entirety, with a rousing audience discussion to follow] so all in all, it seems like the job for me :)


friday night Rob and i went to see Rich Goldstein [jazz guitar teacher at Hartt] again. this time with a vocalist named Edwin West who i swear to god is Noah Massimo's long lost, black twin brother. the resemblance is uncanny.


hahaha
and jenny just said "I feel like [that girl] would fall if I hit her in the back with a bat!...Well, I guess anyone would fall if you hit them in the back with a bat..."

but anyway...


the show was really good. they played a lotta R&B stuff, some funk and some blues. and Rich shreds like no other. good times.
then we came back to school and i found Jenny to be quite drunk :) how did i know this? well there was a phone call that went something like this: "Hi Hunny! Did you have fun? I'm pretty drunk. [to someone else] Oh my God! You spilled to water all over yourself! Do you remember who I am? No, my name's JJ. Why are you only wearing boy briefs?!? [to me] Hi Baby! I miss you! I drank all of your vodka...do you hate me? I'm so sorry! I drank it all!" [and so on, before shane can get a word in edgewise :)] oh jenny, how i love thee...

so rob and i needed to get drunk quickfast. but that didn't happen. long story short [in order to avoid writing another NOVEL of an entry] we went to JPS's place, there was a fire alarm, rob and i chugged some beers in the woods, then drank some more in JPS's suite. i was kinda buzzed, but chugging cold beer doesn't really agree with me much :( but all in all it was a good night.

then we slept until about 4:45 pm the next day :D that was sooo good. but then....

time for our date!
my darling and i went to Macaroni Grill and then went to see Dawn of the Dead. it was an amazing night. i looooove dates with my girl <3 and the movie was gooooood too. 2 for 2 with zombie movies! yay! [that's including 28 Days Later]

what a great time we had. then BFFL came back from her party with Jeanna...and a guy named Vinny ;) so Jenny and i vacated the room for about 2 hours so she could have her way with him. and then we came back and fell asleep.

and now it's sunday. and the weekend is over. but that's okay, because it means we're one week closer to the summer! and to D I S N E Y i cannot wait :) :) :) :) :D

Jenny got her iPod!!!!!!!!!!
but that's old news now :) although the Apple store was pretty sweet. and it made me wanna buy lots and lots of stuff, because everything was just so pretty. but the wallet was emptied in the noble endeavor of purchasing Jenny's iPod. and that's a-okay with me.


today was...somewhat uneventful i think...it's hard to remember unless i go through a play by play type thing.

well i went for a job interview type thing for a technician job on campus. so far it sounds like a pretty good deal; all i have to do is make sure stuff is set up for presentations and things [like vcr, dvd, projectors, microphones, etc.] and then i basically sit there...and do nothing until it's over. when it's over i just put stuff away. all the while getting paid. i think it's $7.50 an hour or something so at least it'll be some pocket cash. and some good time to devote to studying or getting work done. i'm going to a meeting about it tomorrow and the woman who was doing the hiring said if i want the job after the meeting they can do the paper work that day and she'll even pay me for the time at the meeting. pretty sweet, huh? i know. i'm the man.

and today i also worked on making my schedule. it's not looking like it'll be all that much fun...i'm probably going to end up having a night class every day except friday. that means i get out of class at 8:15 on mondays and wednesdays, and 6:50 on tuesdays and thursdays :( but i set it up so that i don't have to drop big band, because in the long run i think Jenny and my dad are right; i would regret it.

but that's about it for today. oh except for ensemble today, which was RIDICULOUS. we had a guy come in and sub for Nat [because he's in the Cayman Islands or Italy or somewhere that isn't Hartford playing jazz with someone that isn't us] and he gave us the most intense jazz theory ever. and it was only about one chord. triad substitutions, diminished whole tone, superlydian something or other...sharp fours and flat fives [dirp...they're actually the same...shut up], and...my god i don't even know. i met jenny after class and i told her i don't even think i would have been able to solo over any changes after that discussion because my brain was just destroyed.

oooooh! have to go now, Vanilla Ice is on VH1!!!!
'go ninja, go ninja, go!'
[secret of the ooze nuckaa!]

bah.
this just isn't my day :(

so last night was spent pretty quickly...i was supposed to go to the library to study for my humanities midterm but ran off to Best Buy and the mall instead in search of an iPod for my darling. but i suck, and the stores were closed so i couldn't get one. and now, i checked my credit card thinger online and i only have an available balance of $188...plus the $92 in my wallet...plus the $59 Jenny gave me to hold on to...which adds up to...not enough for an iPod :( and i feel awful...

i know everyone else who's reading this doesn't know the whole story, but i just feel...useless? i guess? more like...inadequate for lack of a better word...i just feel like i can't give jenny what she wants...and that kills me. because i really want to be everything for that girl. and no, this is not a cry for sympathy so don't worry about that :) it's just this feeling i get when i disappoint her...i don't think i can even describe it...but it hurts me somehow. baaahhh.

maybe this is silly to other people, but it makes so much sense to me.

but anyway...
so i came back to jenny's room and got a bit of studying done. but all the Plato and Virgil and Cicero and Homer starts to look miiiiigggghhhhtttyyy similar after midnight :( so like most other things recently, i suck at studying.
i'm not really sure what time i quit...2 or 3 i think? maybe later? maybe it just seemed later? i dunno.

then, this morning, there were like a million alarm clocks going off...and much confusion as to whose was whose. i think there was one at 6:30? maybe? and one or two at 8ish...and then finally one at 10 for me. but it was all very disorienting...and when i write them out like that, it doesn't seem like too many. but after a couple hours of sleep it sure does seem like a million.

but then i went to my midterm, took forever to do it [correction - took forever to FAIL it] and then went to have lunch with Rob. then i picked jenny up from her class and took her to art...and then i was going to get in the studio for a bit but Rob told me that all the projects are apparently finished. i don't know how often that happens but i don't think it's an every day occurrance.

then back to jenny's where i sit now.

oh, and to top it all off, i think i'm getting sick.
and my shirt just ripped. and i like this shirt.
this has been a wonderful day.
bah.
and i always liked spring :*(

back at school. fashizzle nizzle.

we left my house around 8pm on sunday because jenny slept all day :) she felt really bad but i'm sure she needed it. and we were technically still on vacation so what's the problem?

so we got back to school around 10 after stopping to eat and whatnot, unpacked and then i passed out on jenny's bed. not the most productive day i've ever had, but...

yesterday was an interesting day...
while in the studio for my practicum hours, i got a little bit done editing a project i'm working on but i'm supposed to compile a cd from recordings that are almost 10 years old. it wouldn't be so hard except for that fact that one song was recorded on a DAT that's being kept in the deepest darkest dungeons of the archives and i have no way of getting there.
after asking Kathleen [the studio manager] what i should do, she replied "go get some M&Ms for the candy jar." and that was that.

then Chris came in and told us that he got into grad school at SUNY Purchase and is going to study bass with John Abercrombie. totally sweet. after that he began telling us about how, when he has his own house, there will be no forks or spoons; only sporks.

this sparked a conversation that lasted a good half hour on the better points of the spork as a utensil and also a fairly vigorous internet search for metal sporks which resulted in our discovery of a spork tribute page. during the discussion, it was unanimously decided [by chris] that the spork should become the symbol of the MPT department at the Hartt School.

then, we found it: the mother of all sporks.
weighing in at only 0.6 oz, the titanium spork is the end-all be-all of utensils, maximizing functionality along with space and weight conservation. one could call it the Alpha Utensil.

shortly thereafter, chris decided he had caused enough trouble and had successfully managed to halt any and all forms of work in the studio...so he left.

then Rob and i agreed to do the recording at Wilde of some classical guitar recital that night...along with our good friend mr. yuengling ;)

before the recording, jenny and i went to the mall so she could get herself some new jeans since she destroyed her other pairs somehow and i went around grabbing some job applications because i need money. lots of money. and i figure even if i can only work at minimum wage for a couple months, that's better than not working at all right? right.
i got around to a&e, a&f, gap, and fye [that looks funny now that i type it out...] but apparently fye isn't hiring so that didn't really work out. but i got applications for the other places and met up with jenny [who didn't find anything she liked] and then we came back to school and i headed to the session.


well Wilde Auditorium doesn't take much effort to record in...there's a permanently placed overhead mic in front of the stage and all you have to do is put in a DAT and set levels. so after that was done, rob and i opened a couple beers.

but then the guy who had all the keys and stuff that let us in came back. so we had to hide our beers quickfast and hope that he left so we could sneak them out.
but he didn't.
so...we had to chug them while he wasn't looking...by that i mean we turned our backs to him while he was on the phone and then, bottoms up! then we stuffed them in rob's backpack, grabbed the tape and headphones, and ran away.
adventure? excitement? oh yeah, we got that.
i bet you never thought classical guitar playing could be so CRAZY!!!
well, it's not. unless there's alcohol involved.


yup. that's about it for yesterday...my love and i tried to finish watching the Two Towers last night but nicole was trying to sleep and we couldn't make it loud enough to hear so it shall have to wait.


the only reason this entry's been so long is because jenny isn't here...and i don't feel like studying. but i have to. and that's what i'm going to do. really. i mean it.

right after i make pizza rolls.
...delicious...cheesy...orgasmic...pizza rolls...

came back home for a night after an AMAZING week at jenny's house upstate [yes, with jenny...]

we got lots of important stuff done [lie] and spent a lot of amazingly good quality time with my love [totally true].

it was so great to not wake up until 3 or 4 in the afternoon EVERY DAY :) and our time spent outside the house [however little] was just incredible. and we got through 4 movies too! good ones [moulin rouge, chicago, raiders of the lost ark, and lord of the rings] and i love movie time with jenny.

and i got to have my corned beef and cabbage on st. patty's day so i was more than happy that night :D and my jenny's company is always grood. i mean, good. and great. great and good...and so much more...

**by the way, i still owe you a bit of payback...it will come. and it will be good. you just wait.**

but the sleep was much needed. very much.
and lots and lots of thanks to mr. johnson for breakfast/brunch/lunch. it was delicious.




this entry has been terrible...but that's okay because it's my journal...and there are lots of distractions...and i really just want to go lay on the couch with jenny and watch tv.

she just got a drunken call from sara. i can hear it all the way over here because her phone is louder than the tv :) oh jenny.
so cute.
so beautiful.
so deaf.
:p



long story short, this week was beyond amazing. beyozing. yondazing. bemazing. there. bemazing. i like that.


i CANNOT WAIT until disney this summer :) :) :) :)

this is an entry for Jenny. all for jenny. and no one else.
because i love her.
and the fact that we've been drinking has nothing to do with it.

she's the most amazing person i've ever met. i love her more than anything and i just want to make her happy. she's the best thing to ever happen to me.

the cutest, sexiest and most beautiful person i've ever known...the most loving...[and hopefully the most loved]...

oh the pig farmer guy touched the other girl!!! even though he smells!!! it's great. oh yeah, we're watching Waking Ned Devine. I think i may have already said that.

...anyway...

Jenny is the greatest thing ever. really. seriously. just incredible.

and her eyes are the most intense, warm and gorgeous that ever were. and her smile is so beautiful and cute and true...god i love her.

i just wish i could hold you forever, jenny.
and i think i'll get started right now.
here i come, baby :)

so spring break has officially begun.
wooooohoooo!!!!! :)
what better way to spend it than drinking and watching Pirates of the Caribbean with my wonderful girlfriend...and noah.

on a side note, noah talked to sara tonight. he was hitting on her hardcore...but not really. it was fun. well, fun to watch. [as so many things are in this world ;) just kidding...but not really.]

so Pirates is just about over. noah's on the phone with his lady friend and jenny is creeping him out by just kinda stalking him as he walks around on the phone and staring at him and that's fun.

and jenny likes noah now :) it makes me happy


in case anyone didn't know...we left school on wednesday night and came back to spend the night at my dad's house which was AMAZING i love her so much. and then we slept until about 2 or 3 and didn't really leave the house all day.
we just kinda spent time sitting on the couch and reading a bit [i'm almost done with Diary...and jenny's about half way through Choke...i got her hooked on Palahniuk even if she won't admit it]
and then noah came over and we played music and it was hella fun. noah writes good shit. you know it's true.
FiveTen whatwhat.


alright...this entry wasn't really anything special...i could swear i had some stuff to write about. jenny just got freaked out by some of the strange noises one can hear at my house. so noah and i went out to check it out and it was most likely some happy little critter just a-hippedy hoppedying around the house.
no worries.

g'night all.

i am eating cookie dough right now. it is amazing. no, not the ice cream, actual cookie dough. it's orgasmic. i'm soooo so so so so hungry.

and jenny and i are going OH-YOU-TEE o u t in a bit!!! :) we're off for a date at the Macaroni Grill with a slight chance of a movie afterwards. i can't wait. i looove when we go out together...we always have such a good time.


what's happened since the last entry worth posting...um.
my dad came up yesterday with lisa because they're going to St. Lucia for lisa's birthday...WITHOUT me >:( but that's okay, if i went to st. lucia, i wouldn't be able to spend the week with jenny. and i think we all know that upstate new york with my beautiful girl is a million times better than some exotic island...
definitely better.

so today, i got up and went to class...but i don't really remember it so much because i was so amazingly tired...because we stayed up taking PICTURES OF JENNY!!! and, just like her, they're gorgeous. absolutely bangin' :)

then when we went to bed...jenny finished my book. after i fell asleep. i didn't believe it. she reads hella fast. or i just read hella slow.
luckily she hasn't told me how it ends...and please don't :) it's soooo good so far.

after class, i came back and took a nap. and didn't wanna get up to go to ensemble. but it's a good thing i did because we were recording so Nat would probably have been pissed if i had missed it.
[and i found out he's playing with Jimmy Cobb. how amazing is that? just another one to add to the list of incredible players he's performed with...along with Shane McMahon of course]
and now a bit of venting...
because i was supposed to have my lesson at 5 today. and i got there, and Gabor saw me and just kept going until 5:45 when he FINALLY came out in the hall to tell me we would have our lesson tomorrow. roar. that was annoying. i was really really REALLY pissed that he made me sit out there while i could've been back here spending time with jenny. grrrrr!

alright, she's ready to go now.
Macaroni Grill, watch out.